You know what I really hate???......
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You know what I really hate???......
| Fri, 03-05-2004 - 9:05am |
are those realistic dreams....you know the ones....where you are suddenly with your exMM and you're talking with them, and everything is right and good and everything is just so beautifully blissful.....and then, you wake up and all the pain floods back to you; that it was never what you thought it was, that you will never hear his voice again, or feel the touch of his hand again. And despite how well you were doing up to that point, you feel the pain for those few moments like you did when it first occurred. And that indelible mark on your soul, that small space of aching suddenly increases, and the tears flow anew.
Gosh, and I was doing pretty good....and then he pops into my dreams....
NC=1 month today. Last time we saw each other=2 months today.
dharma

It really scares me, however, to hear things like this. I've had NC for 1 week today. I keep thinking that it's gotta get easier...hopefully sooner rather than later. I was hoping that a month down the road, this pain would be nothing more than a faded memory.
Sometimes I think I miss the "possibilities" that I imagined for the relationship more than I actually miss him. Other times I just really want to talk to him...but I want it be like it was before we started to fall apart.
Good luck!