Yucky Blech Ugh Day!
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| Wed, 10-27-2004 - 4:42pm |
But am I doing any of that??? NOPE! Here I sit - wondering why he called me from California (which was saturday by the way - it has now consumed my entire week). Wondering if he is going to come to my show next week. Wondering if he is going to call me tomorrow or Friday and want to see me before his last day at work. Wondering and stressing is all I seem to do lately. IT SUCKS! I hate it. I use to be the one in control - he was the one calling me and telling me how much he loves me and how he can't wait to see me. Since he ended it...even before he ended it - when he started to pull away - I turned into this needy, clingy, whiney mess!!! It's awful!
There are so many unanswered question that are running through my mind. I know I haven't been able to make a clean break of things...but honestly, neither has he. Part of me truly misses him and the other part of me just wants him to disappear (maybe off the edge of a cliff...)!!
Diva

Yes, yes, yes! I am having the same kind of day.
I'm missing him so much today, and that makes me so angry with myself. I'm such an independent-minded person. I willingly let this man take control of my emotions and it's still driving me crazy. I fell head-over-heels for someone I could never have.
Thanks for your post. I'm always glad to hear that I'm not the only one.
Diva