Zenesday...UBM in for Bodhi ;)

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Zenesday...UBM in for Bodhi ;)
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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 12:11pm

I am also a yogi, like Bodhi and since she is hanging with Mickey this week I thought I would post in her absence...in her honor, because she is pretty much the coolest chick ever.

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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 3:24pm

UM,

Thank you so much for posting this today – I feel your Zen, and once again the post I read first zings me in how I’ve been feeling.

SURRENDER

It’s a word that brings a connotation of negativity ordinarily – but I realized in reading your post that surrendering is not giving up, it is not giving in – it is readjusting and giving OVER to truth, and light, and peace.

Six months ago I would agree with you – I was a seed.

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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 4:30pm

Thanks, Lolly.

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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 8:04pm
Dear UBM,

What a beautiful post - I read the quote you posted over and over. It resonates so loudly with me ... at this phase in my healing journey. I am learning to spread my wings again by letting other people into my space. I have been so afraid to let anyone in close to me again, even possible friends, because I just could not see myself risking that kind of hurt again - or hurting others again. I felt like the people in my life now know what they are in for - they have all been lifelong friends, know ALL my little quirks and ALL about the affair, who I became while in it, and the person I have become - and they have LOVED me hard with all these mistakes & faults. With them I feel safe, so letting any one else in hasn't been something I have wanted. However, there have been a few people HERE who have wormed their way in to my heart!!! They have been consistent in my life, and they make me feel cared for ... even in the simple little "thinking of you" messages they send me.

So my Zen thought for the day:

Let your love flow outward through the universe,
To its height, its depth, its broad extent,
A limitless love, without hatred or enmity.
Then as you stand or walk,
Sit or lie down,
As long as you are awake,
Strive for this with a one-pointed mind;
Your life will bring heaven to earth.

- Sutta Nipata

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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 8:44pm

Beautiful, transcended. Thank you so much for sharing that. I am so glad you are allowing yourself to open up a little. I so understand how you feel. I can't imagine being good for anyone else right now. EAS has not only given me a place to heal, but also a place to share myself with others and find new friends who understand and who can help me be brave enough to risk letting myself be known and loved again.

I am so glad you are here transcended. Thank you for sharing your journey with me.

namaste',
UBM

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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 9:05pm

UBM,

What a beautiful post, so appropriate for this time especially--it being the dead of winter and with so many newbies here. I am so glad we have another yogi on board. EAS may be your guiding light, but your innate wisdom and strength are your best assets.

Surrender. Blind Faith. Turning one's self over. Indeed, I believe these are absolutely necessary to get beyond the fear and doubt of ending an A and into the next phase of self-discovery. Beautiful, cracked seeds. Beauty on the inside, struggling to emerge and be seen.

Spring will be here before we all know it.

Thank you for filling in for Bodhi. You did a fantastic job!!!

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 9:29pm
[blushing, kicking the imaginary dust with her chucks] Aw shucks, Always! Thanks for that. You gave me the biggest smile.

xoxo
UBM
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Thu, 01-13-2011 - 7:55am
A very beautiful post. Thank you stepping up while Bodhi's off having the time of her life. ;-)

I'm not a very Zen kinda person, but I do live by one quote that resonated with me several years ago when I was still tripping over myself.

"If you always tell the truth, you'll never have to remember anything."

(((Hugs)))
Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Thu, 01-13-2011 - 10:06am
UBM, I really enjoyed your post. I had read it throughout the day and let it settle over me and read it again this morning with a little more clarity. Thank you for sharing, you are a pretty cool chick too:)
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Thu, 01-13-2011 - 10:34am
My Grandpa always said that to me, iddy...and it is really good advice. It makes sense why you are such an awesome CL here, and why your words carry a certain weight with all of us. We know it's the truth. Not always what we want to hear, but it IS the key to getting FREE.

Thanks, iddy. You're better than zen.
xoxo
UBM
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Thu, 01-13-2011 - 10:37am
Thanks, Jen...and right back atcha. I am so glad it spoke to you. I woke up feeling really down this morning and had to remind myself....Spring is on the way. I am so grateful to be on this journey with so many wonderful people. It is such a relief not to be alone. I can't wait to see what kind of flowers we are going to be.

warm hugs,
UBM

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