Zenseday

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Registered: 06-17-2010
Zenseday
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Wed, 03-02-2011 - 10:24am

I'm leaving in a few hours for a mini vacation to the beach with my girlfriends. We've taken this trip every year for the past 6 years and every year I've thought to myself "I can't believe I'm here again and nothing has changed." Tomorrow is the "anniversary" of the start of the physical part of my A - 8 years ago. I know there will be triggers while I'm away. I'll pass the same gazebo where I sat and talked to him while on my run, etc. But this year I will say to myself "I'm so happy I'm here and I've changed." I've learned so much over the past 8 months from all of you on eas. It's been a hectic few weeks trying to get everything done before this trip (a joy of self employment), so I apologize for not being able to post as much as I'd like to. I've also felt the need to step back a little bit and take stock in where I am with my healing. I want all the newbies to know that no matter how you feel right now, no matter how much you hurt and think life is horrible, it's much better than living a lie. Stay in the present moment and choose how you will live your life. You are worth it :)

Have a wonderful, peaceful week everyone!

Bodhi

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Registered: 12-13-2010
In reply to: bodhi2010
Wed, 03-02-2011 - 10:41am

Thank you Bodhi.

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Registered: 10-14-2010
In reply to: bodhi2010
Wed, 03-02-2011 - 11:29am

What I love MOST about what you said, Bodhi

(Besides the fact that you get to getaway with your GFS!!! yay!!! Celebrate!)

Is that you would always return saying "everything's the same".

THIS YEAR?

EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT!

Oh what a difference a YEAR makes!

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Registered: 12-31-2009
In reply to: bodhi2010
Wed, 03-02-2011 - 2:45pm

Staying in the present moment and choosing how I will live my life is excellent advice, Bodhi.

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Registered: 01-24-2011
In reply to: bodhi2010
Thu, 03-03-2011 - 12:42am

Hi Bodhi, hope you have a