1 year and 1 month later
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1 year and 1 month later
| Fri, 02-06-2004 - 8:41pm |
Well, it's been awhile since I have written. My A has been going on for 1 year and 1 month. I guess, I was trying to let my MM figure out what he should do, without me telling him. Then, I figured out that no matter what he decides to do, right now, I am happy with him. Even if I only have him on a part time basis. I tried to tell him to work things out with his wife...probably 6 or 7 times over the past year. The last time I told him that, I even said "I'm going to put my foot down and stay away so you can try"....well, as we all know, that doesn't work for very long. I stopped feeling sorry for myself and decided to live my life day by day. All I know is that I am miserable without him! I am totally happy when I am with him...I smile again. I feel like me! Now it seems as if someone has called his wife and told her to watch her husband. He's a little freaked out now...I keep asking him what does he want me to do, he says nothing right now. He knows the risks...that's why I know that he really does love me too! I am still M too. My divorce has been scheduled and re-scheduled twice. Now my H has actually been nice...makes me think twice again. Just don't know if I can go back to that after my A. I truly feel like my MM is my soul mate, but, he is not ready to leave his M or his 2 kids. I do understand that. It took me forever to actally kick my H out. I guess that all I wanted to say to anyone in an A...you have to accept it for what it is. Don't look into the future...live for that day...love for the time you have and enjoy every minute you spend together! That is my new motto!

Mama
hi myballcoach and welcome back!
well, it sounds like you have your head on straight and that's always good!
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