Affair vs. Relationship
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|Thu, 08-16-2012 - 10:36pm|
I went to a psychic, who told me my AP would not be leaving his wife (anytime soon). She went into details of thier relationship...details I didn't know. I shared it with him and he agreed with the psychic. What I wasn't wanting is him agreeing that he would not leave the marriage. Our conversation included how much he loves me and how he hates not being with me. It also included his admission that he is not giving me the relationship that I want and that he doesn't want to be the one tht holds me back from having what I want. He said that he wants me to tell him if I can't do this anymore...I agreed. He said you ask me what I want ...if i want it to end...he says no...he is scared of losing me but feels selfish.
I guess I knew that I was second...but now I guess I have to accept this...I was hoping he would say he would figh for us. It hurts so much to love someone so much, admire them, want to be with them in everyway and know they are more committed to a person who gives them none of those feelings. Why is this?