All is NOT lost as assumed b/4...

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Registered: 02-22-2004
All is NOT lost as assumed b/4...
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Fri, 04-09-2004 - 9:41pm
After my last encounter with my MM, I was so convinced that I had screwed up that I was beside myself and actually started getting over him. Felt I had no choice. However, this week things are back to 'normal'. And today, he asked me to meet him for drinks at the same place we always meet. Our time together is short always, only an hour or so. We talked about a job change for me that would be quite a career advancement. He talked about his potential advancement as well,etc. When we walked to our cars it was the same as the last few times, we talk a bit, hug and kiss with our mouths closed. I am back to the point of thinking we are friends with a 'special' something between us. I would rather have this however than nothing. Am I wrong here or are we still on the road to a potential A? I still am going slow with him... want him to come to some crossroad of action by himself.

Comments from the crowed wanted... Thanks!

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-05-2004
Sat, 04-10-2004 - 6:37am
please don't push yourself to go any further. Let things happen in their own good time. You are so lucky to have a friend that treasures your time with him. Things get more complicated when you start showing your feelings in a physical way. Then the hurt comes when you want him to be there for you and he is not. I feel my MM was always there as a friend and after a year of the physical stuff and emotional maybe now we will not be able to separate the two things to get back to the wonderful friendship we had if he decides to leave me. The thought of that really hurts me. Just a thought, but remember I am in NC right now and feeling extremely helpless.

Wanting my best friend to call,