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Another End............
| Sun, 10-19-2003 - 9:07am |
Except in my case there never was an EMA....it was more an EMF (extra marital fantasy). It was so close to turning into more....we had just discussed our attraction to each other, we were talking every day by email, and saw each other once a week. But there was never any touching (nothing inappropriate anyway). So then his gfriend (of 3.5 yrs) read his email account (he mistakening left it open when he went to work) and lost it. That was Thursday. Since then, I wasn't sure where he and I stood but he came by my work yesterday and we talked briefly and he left me with the impression that things were ok. When I got home from work, there was a message from him saying "We can't talk anymore. I messed up and we can't have a relationship. Sorry." That's it. We never had a "relationship". This is bothering me so much but I'm trying desperately to not let it show (I'm married). All I keep seeing is his face. We still have to see each other once a week and I'm not sure how to handle that. Although we never, ever got to the "A" part, I felt a connection with him and I know he did with me. I keep praying that his gfriend made him write that email and that we'll still be ok but just ALOT more careful. I don't know what to do. I want to email him back and pour it all out how I feel but I don't think that's a good idea. I'm going to stay quiet and maybe he'l get the hint of how hurt I am (generally, I respond to everything he writes me).
Please, if any of you have advice or similar experiences, please share them with me. I don't know how to feel about this since there was no affair but i'm having to end a relationship anyway. It seems so unfair.
Thanks!! Now I understand why you guys need this support so badly!! This is crazy!
hugs to all of you!
nsw

Thank you for letting me vent. I plan on doing that alot since there is no one else that knows how I truely feel about all this.
((hugs))
NSW