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Anticipation Building again
| Tue, 08-11-2009 - 7:43pm |
And i will see him again this coming weekend.. its his birthday, and of course i'm making a cake. I want to pour chocolate on him and tell him he's my lollipop. If i wouldn't get arrested for indecent exposure, i'd wrap myself in nothing but a bow.
We had a hard time behaving around our friends this past weekend. I think it was the hardest yet to be casual. We all went out to dinner and hung out with each other for the whole evening. We did sneak away for awhile to be alone and that was nice. It's getting harder and harder not to get physically involved with him. The attraction is so strong, lately its all i think about. Esp. since we have been emailing each other practically every day. We almost went out on a date this past weekend too, but i was too tired. We agreed next time we'll plan it better. A date??... that's something new for him and i to be doing. We haven't gone out on a date in over a year and a half.
We had a hard time behaving around our friends this past weekend. I think it was the hardest yet to be casual. We all went out to dinner and hung out with each other for the whole evening. We did sneak away for awhile to be alone and that was nice. It's getting harder and harder not to get physically involved with him. The attraction is so strong, lately its all i think about. Esp. since we have been emailing each other practically every day. We almost went out on a date this past weekend too, but i was too tired. We agreed next time we'll plan it better. A date??... that's something new for him and i to be doing. We haven't gone out on a date in over a year and a half.

Sounds yummy! good for you. Have you had sex with him? I couldn't tell for sure. Enjoy!
-jana
Caution ! you are in danger zone.
A strong emotional connection with huge sexual attraction is nothing but a recipe for disaster.i wont say run because you have already dived in.
All the best.
what about broken hearts? i guess your AP is MM.after you are D,what if he doesnt leave?will you be alright with it?
You are not friends.Your post says much more than you believe you are writing,KWIM? You are in too deep,dolly.
Talk about affairs of the heart !
I hope you keep getting what you desire.(( hugs ))
"You are not friends.Your post says much more than you believe you are writing,KWIM? You are in too deep,dolly."
No, i dont know what you mean...whaddya mean we are not friends? He is one of the best friends i have ever had.
And as far as to whats going to happen after i get divorced, i believe i will continue on doing what i know in my heart to be the right thing. Which is living my life. And what will happen to me and AP after i divorce is something i have no way of knowing. Life hasn't stopped for me just because of him in it. My world doesn't revolve around him, either. Yes, i get excited when i know i am going to see him, but i dont sit there and dwell on it. I also dont sit there all day waiting for him to contact me either. That's just silly, imo.
hopefully this makes sense and prepares you head on as to where you are going.
I would advice to let this stay as EA and dont go ahead with PA.You wont be you after that.Have you kissed?