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|Sat, 09-08-2012 - 10:19pm|
So after Thursday's conversation about things being "awkward" I've tried to keep my distance from AP. On Friday my daughter was playing in his driveway with some other kids and bumped her head. I went and picked her up and he came out. We talked for a minute about what happened and than I said "is this awkward for you." Yes there was a little sarcasm thrown in there but I'm trying to think of him. He is obviously having problems dealing with this where I do not have guilt or feel awkward. I don't want to put him in any further distress so I'm trying to back away. He got all pissed off, told me he wasn't in the mood to deal with this s*&^ and if it's going to be like that he would end this s*&t right now. I told him to calm down I wasn't being funny I was being serious.
So later on he had to make a comment to me talk to me for a few mins. Nothing about us just in general. I commented as much as was needed. Later on he came back out and talked to me again-once again when there was no need to. I swear he's bipolar.
I came home from a long day at a sporting event, hot tired and ready to chill. Obviously the BFF's and the AP and his W went to some church function and left the two kids at home (15 & 10). Naturally they ended up at my house, eating with us and playing with my kids. It is now 5 hours later and we are still "sitting" them. I so freaking bad want to text him and ask if this is freaking awkward.
I think this all has about pushed me to my limit. I'm ready to call it off, cry some tears, mend my broken heart and go on about my life. I understand his feelings, but does he even freaking understand mine!!!