Baby steps...

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Registered: 05-17-2003
Baby steps...
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Tue, 09-01-2009 - 11:00pm

Hi everyone,


Well, as much as I hate being a whiner...this appears to be the only place that I can let this stuff out so that's what I've got to do. I have to keep talking, otherwise I'm going to turn to stone and just fade away.


As far as AP/BF goes, I have not heard from him since my drunk text. I've tried very hard to just leave him be but I've failed. The last text I sent was this morning and all I said was that I will try and leave him be. I'm fighting very hard not to text again, and it is...VERY HARD.


The baby steps that I took was that I did not drink any alcohol today, as much as I wanted to just get completely blotto and pass out for as long as I could...the people at the Mental Health clinic finally called me back today...hey, it only took a week for them to do that, and hey...it's only going to be another two before I could actually get an appointment. I hope that I can hang on that long.


I've spent pretty much the entire day crying...my heart is shattered and it's nobody's fault but my own.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 05-20-2007
In reply to: benska2003
Sun, 09-06-2009 - 4:48am

i understand completely, but i found that the only way to begin to


untie those ties that bind is to start a change in direction


toward what you want, make him the side dish, not the entree...


he is not deserving of the entree plate unless you are his as well







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