Back again!

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Registered: 05-14-2004
Back again!
Tue, 05-18-2004 - 10:19am
Hello all. I was here in September and October of 2002. I and my OM called it quits in November 2002 when I found out I was pregnant.

Well, here I am again..... 18 months later, with a 10 month old daughter. I told myself during my pregnancy that I would never get involved with my OM again... that I would just have my baby, stick with my husband, and go on with my life.

Well, I guess I'm not as strong as I thought I was, because I cannot stay way from my OM! We haven't slept together again yet (since October of 2002)... but he stops by nearly every day on his way to and from work... we've been kissing and fondling again, we talk on the phone every day, and things are quickly getting complicated. Whenever I see him my heart jumps up... when he leaves again I feel sad. I KNOW that we will be sleeping together again before long, and I try to tell myself that it's 'wrong' of me to do that... but I can't deny what I feel for him.

As for my husband- I was foolish to think that anything that was present in our relationship (or absent) would change just because we had another child. Nothing every changes between us.

I am so confused!!!! I am not ready to be without my husband... but I don't want to be without my OM.

Anyway... looks like I'm back!