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|Mon, 09-17-2012 - 2:08pm|
I have been here and every board pertaining to an A. And I am supposed to learn a lesson with each time I mess up and have an A, but alas, I have not. lol So, here I am again, after a 3 year hiatus w/AP from the last time. So, going on 6 years with this guy. What is wrong with me?
Well, to begin with, he and I are very compatible, but mostly in bed. Secondly, he is like a drug. This whole A is as addictive as it gets, for both of us. It is what it is though, only a physical A. I have to keep telling myself that, because he is the king of mixed signals, and not saying exactly what he means. There is no guessing this time. If I need something clarified I will get it. And I am doing my best to let my heart be in the way, because I know I have feelings, as I always have. But it is not meant to be that way.
At least this time, he is partially more honest. He has admitted to a girlfriend this time. He is single, and I wouldn't expect him to not live his life, as I have a H and family of my own.
Hopefully, playing things a little different will produce different results. So far, so good.