BACK IN THE THROWS!!

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Registered: 09-23-2009
BACK IN THE THROWS!!
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Mon, 09-28-2009 - 4:21pm
OK, I made a life altering decision, I am back with my AP, DW wants no sex, no emotional relationship, just keep the funds coming, and I am happy, SO SHE SAYS!! AP, well now P, and soon legally P, makes me want to wake up, laugh, I feel Love, not just know its "THERE"! I actually love to come home. We have a cd, our old cd, its 59 min. long, on auto replay, and last night it went all the way thru 3 times during our lovemaking, OMG, it was always this way, and she dated lightly, but waited 4 years for me to come back, she truly loves me, I love her,
I know it all started wrong, but now its all RIGHT.
If you were me, (you may read other posts I have on this),
would you have done the same, or stuck out a dead life?
Just curious to what thoughts are on my decision.
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Registered: 08-28-2004
Mon, 09-28-2009 - 10:42pm

Hi Luvern,


I read your post the the other day after I responded to your first one. At first I was upset b/c

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Registered: 04-17-2009
Tue, 09-29-2009 - 7:26am
The word is throes, not throws.


Edited 9/29/2009 7:28 am ET by btdtbd44
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Registered: 08-07-2005
Tue, 09-29-2009 - 10:22am

I'm just curious to know how it makes you feel to know you're just a meal ticket?

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Registered: 09-23-2009
Tue, 09-29-2009 - 4:12pm
I was a Meal Ticket, Thats why I threw in the towel, so to speak, and went back to my AP, or now P. Being a sexless, wage earning, loving meal ticket SUCKS, I did it for 4 plus years, and now I have what I wanted, needed, lost, and loved in my arms all night long!!
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Registered: 09-23-2009
Tue, 09-29-2009 - 4:37pm
Hello, we did have very limited contact over the 4 and 1/2 years.
I thought about her day and night, almost made contact 1000's of times.
I kept telling myself no, I am married, and I cant hurt MY AP, she deserved to have a chance at a full time love, I loved her enough to realize that, and hoped and prayed she was happy, even with what I was going thru!! After your post, I contacted her to meet me, I told her what I wanted to do, if she was in agreement, and now I never have to wonder what if..............
I have what I wanted, needed, and should have had 4 and a 1/2 years ago. WHAT GOES THRU A MANS MIND? Watch out, If I were a jerk, I could have seen her and had great sex, lovemaking told her I loved her, told her I was ending M soon, and led it and her on indefinitley. It happens everyday, vulnerable men and women fall for this S**T, and the sex, if you are really good together, and tell someone things they want to hear, say I Love You soooo much, if you can get to them physically, emotionally, and mentally, YOU CONTROL THEM!! It is sick, sad, but true, and not hard to do to most people, as we are all looking to be loved, and Women that are taken sexually by a man, told what they want to hear, treated like gold whenever he is around, will wait like a DOG for him, wait for hom to leave his W, or family, hanging on to a thread of hope, and 99 percent of them NEVER get "it all", they just get used, led on for years, and eventually the man moves on to another just like her, and cruelly dumps them in a heap of sadness. Women do this to men too, but a woman falls much quicker and easier for this BS!!
And these people being "USED" hang on FOREVER, sad as it is, it is true!!
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Registered: 09-14-2009
Tue, 09-29-2009 - 6:37pm

Luvern,

Hey I just wanted to say that you deserve to be happy! I am in a similar situation, although I am not the meal ticket LOL. But you do deserve to be happy and I am glad you found someone who makes you that way! Whether you decide to stay or go that's up to you. But enjoy it!!