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| Tue, 04-06-2004 - 3:11pm |
"If loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right."
LOL - well so much for that no contact thing. OM and I have never gone more than two days without some sort of contact. This is a 5 month relationship (I'm married 3 years, together for 18 with no children). OM has another woman interested in him but he has been weaning himself away from her.
He and I had no contact over the weekend but Monday morning he phoned me at the office and asked what I was thinking about us. I advised it was best that we end the relationship based of all of the heartfelt conversations we have had. We know this is not the proper way. It's best that I distance myself until I figure things out, all that stuff. Sigh! It's just draining I guess. He is a very sensitive soul and a wonderful man. I posted on the Ending an affair board and referred to my attitude as my "hard exterior." Smiling on the outside but crushed on the inside.
He goes home on his lunch hours so at 12:15 I phoned him there and he was all stuffy sounding. Poor guy had gone and made himself sick over it all. Clearly very upset. He asked if he were to leave work 1/2 hour early if I'd stop over. Of course that lead to a whole string of wonderful lusty events. I remember a website somebody here posted a few weeks ago about the types of affairs. It was the "In Love Affair" catagory that I fell under. He commented "Doesn't it just feel right when you're in love?" Holy cow...very much so. Right before I was leaving he said "Let's not talk about not seeing each other anymore. It hurts too much. If we are distancing ourselves and go a few days without contact, that's alright but let's not PLAN on never seeing each other again." Hehe... yes affairs are very odd and make you think weird ways.
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