Been here once before...

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Registered: 05-21-2003
Been here once before...
Wed, 09-24-2003 - 5:21pm
And now I am back. I posted a few months ago about being married but wanting a fling with my ex who is the love of my life as well as my soul mate (he's single). I have been married for 2 years and I was with my ex for 3 1/2 years. Well, in May, we had that fling. I thought that was the end of it but it was better than it ever was when we were together. Due to different things, we haven't seen each other since but we will be seeing each other tomorrow and I am sure the inevitable will happen.

I do love my H but I just feel...restless. I don't know if this is something that will keep going on or if it will wear of eventually. My OM is happy with just having a A with me. While I feel that's unfair to him, what we once had is still very much there and I don't want him out of my life. I am just afraid at some point, someone will want more. I wonder if I am playing with fire.