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| Mon, 12-29-2008 - 1:48pm |
Hi everyone,
Since my computer has died at home I haven't been able to check in as often as I'd like...I truly thought I'd be posting about how sad this year was and I am so very happy to say that my fears were NOT realized this year and it has been one of the best holiday's I've had in recent memory.
I am NOT a Christmas person...my Mom passed away a few days before Christmas (after we'd been told she was well enough to come home for the day). My brother in law also died a few days before Christmas....on the same date as my Mom had, albeit several years later. My 25 year old M basically ended around this time last year and I really did not have high hopes for this year. Yes, even though I have a new granddaughter :)
Well, I got to spend some time with the baby, she is so precious (and I got portrait photos of her). My girlfriends rallied around me knowing that this time of year can be quite difficult for me (luv those girls!) and last but by no means least....
My AP/BF told me that he loved me! He's told me that before but it was a very long time ago and I don't like to push him for declarations. Anyhow, he was very concerned about my well being (he knows what Christmas is like for me and is also aware that I really love him and want to be with him, especially at this time of year). He has spent every day with me, other than Christmas day (although he did text me a few times throughout the day to see how I was doing). He came over Friday and spent the night, and then on Saturday we ended up watching an entire TV series that I'd rented...after every episode I would check with him re: are you leaving yet and he would just smile and say "play". My GF thinks he's trying to see if we're "compatible" in the long run (as in, can he live with me kind of thing). I hesitate to agree with her except that it really DID feel like he was sussing things out, so to speak. We ordered out a lot and I brought up the idea of cooking him dinner, he told me he'd been wondering why I hadn't done that yet! So, he is definitely "with" me. He has been just so loving and caring, and like a boob I'm starting to feel SCARED...is that bizarre or what? I've spent so long just wanting this to happen...wanting to feel like he cares for me just as much as I care for him and now that the time is here, I'm a little freaked out...LOL
I am going with the flow, not asking for anything but accepting the time he has to give me as graciously as possible. He's even asked me what my schedule is and wants me to come back to his out of town job over the New Year....I cannot believe how this is all turning out! I am not going to get my hopes up too much because we all know the nature of a roller coaster...what goes up, must come down..right? But I will take it, with pleasure!
Happy New Year everyone! I wish all the best for everyone here.

Hi Benska, im so happy for you and glad he came up trumps for you during this time. Sorry to hear of the sadness that surrounds your christmas, but sounds like your ap as helped you see it through with plenty of smiles. Enjoy enjoy enjoy, dont question as what will be will be. Just soak it all in girl lol.
My ap too has put a big smile on my face, i wasnt expecting to talk to him this week although we have texted loads. But he suprised me by calling me this morning (he knew i was alone), and said he had to get out to call me cause he was missing me so much and just had a big urge to hear my voice. He said he has never felt like this where he has missed someone so much emotionally and spiritually that he just had to make a excuse to get out of the house to call and is just counting the days to see me again. Aww he makes me feel so special.
oh well, happy holidays and i hope it gets better and better for you
take care
SS
"be yourself, disguise not, for your a truly unique beautiful being"
"be yourself, disguise not, for your a truly unique beautiful being"
i am very happy for you..as i saw my AP christmas eve...for lunch and then dinner and then "DESSERT" so to speak...we spend all 12/25 xmas day texting and talking on the phone....then on saturday 12/27/08 i saw him again but that was a surprise from him and my son..they tricked me.he got my son to stall me because i was on my way out somewhere on 12/27/08 and my son stalled me for him so i wouldn't roll out (i also had my lip poked out because i didn't think i was gonna be able to see him until the next day)....well i got to spend time all afternoon and evening with him after we took my son shopping.
my christmas gift was wonderful...i was able to go on a mini
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
Hi btrue,
Thank you for your post, sometimes I feel weird when I post happy things but it's very easy to spread the happiness around.
The series we watched was Dexter...I got him totally hooked on it! My hope for New Years is that we stay in the whole time and watch the second season :)
The next one I want to watch (which I haven't seen in store yet) is True Blood, I've only seen a few episodes but it sure looks interesting!
Have a wonderful New Year!
benska