betrayed

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Registered: 05-09-2009
betrayed
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Sat, 05-09-2009 - 11:59pm
my husband is deployed, i just found out he is back at watching porn, even though its something that i'm strongly against. We have a rocky marriage( its a blended family so we have our struggles) and i don't trust him because he hide the porn stuff from me. He would watch it while i was sleeping, showering, cooking, running or out of the house. He would come upstairs and make love to me on a regular basis and i had no idea i was just his release. He wasn't making love to me, he was fu***** the woman he he watched on dvd. I would never betray him, yet he has betrayed me so many times. I feel so sad, lonely and unwanted. I'm at home watching our 4 kids, keeping the house, watching our finances and praying he is okay, yet he never once thought of me and how i would feel.
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Registered: 02-23-2008
In reply to: starnmoon
Sun, 05-10-2009 - 1:08am

I can hear your pain--maybe this message board could help you

http://messageboards.ivillage.com/iv-rlhtporn?ice=ivl,searchmb