"Bot a ticket "...back on roller coaster
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"Bot a ticket "...back on roller coaster
| Mon, 05-17-2004 - 10:17am |
MM emailed me first thing this morning. Told me he noticed me at the school play and was trying to get my attention.
So, here we go again... today's emails are the way they were 2 months ago.... I think I have figured this whole thing out. The light bulb has come on REAL bright.
Although, I am happy with him knowing I am sick, and he knows how I feel that he has not run away. That must be a good sign? Huh?
Happy and calm for now....

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Dusty
You know what, its the same for me!! No obsession and no too much meaning into any attempts by him to get back to where we were before. In fact I am ending it forever. I have put my life on hold four years to be taken as granted and pushed and shoved around way too much. Not anymore. I can tell this time is different. I don't put myself thru the wringer anymore either for this man. I get hurt there and here, nothing that I can't handle. :) Hopefully I will be out of it in a couple of months.
Juliet (no more)
But my M sucks so bad that somehow knowing this "R" will never become an "A" suffices for now.
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Dusty
And with MM in the picture, I was not giving H the attention, and I was not even trying with him. Maybe I will be more motivated now that MM has disappeared. For you too, even though your M is not good, at least your H is the person who you CAN turn to when you are ill, those MM just seem to disappear when the going gets tough.
Dusty
I agree about putting OM on low priority/back burner for now. I can see why you want to do that, it kinds feels good, doesn't it... LOL Anyway, I hope you get what you want - best of the both worlds. Meanwhile I am getting of this affair scene forever as I don't have the excuse of sexual needs satisfied by the OM like you do in your case. I guess we are a little different then, but not that much.
Good to see somebody in the same boat as me. Carry on GF!!
I read your post about being pushed and shoved and i feel the same way. After 4 years also.
He STILL WON'T talk to me on the phone, but yet,wants to im and email me. I told him I couldn't. I wouldn't do it that way. He said to please bare with him. He said "I" was the one who wasn't sure. What a laugh!!!
He's the one M and "I'm" not ready. Ha!
All these stupid games!!
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