"Bot a ticket "...back on roller coaster

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Registered: 02-22-2004
"Bot a ticket "...back on roller coaster
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Mon, 05-17-2004 - 10:17am
MM emailed me first thing this morning. Told me he noticed me at the school play and was trying to get my attention.

So, here we go again... today's emails are the way they were 2 months ago.... I think I have figured this whole thing out. The light bulb has come on REAL bright.

Although, I am happy with him knowing I am sick, and he knows how I feel that he has not run away. That must be a good sign? Huh?

Happy and calm for now....

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Registered: 09-16-2003
Mon, 05-17-2004 - 2:03pm
I don't think being "sure" means you are single, for my OM IS single. I moved out of my marriage partly because of him and partly due to my own problems with H. I was sure we will work things out with him. I did not get any support from him while moving out or afterwards. He was like "whatever you want to do"... I was hauling stuff out my home, re-arranging my life all by myself without any help, Nothing whatsoever. All I asked for was moral support not to take me in his house, you know. How can anybody so flippant be "sure" of anything??

I also asked him, if he is sure of us and wants me to stay I will. This was before I decided to move back into my old house with H. All I got was, "you have to do what is best for you". He seemed not so sure of it all himself. That's why I got the feeling he wan't in it for real. He didn't make any concessions on his side like many other men on this board did - like for example Rain/Boston, to make me feel comfortable with my situation. Nothing very helpful or accomodating. It was always a nonchalant answer of "whatevers suit you". I meant ask him, "what suits you buddy, weren't you in it all along"??? Why the sudden volte face?? Maybe he felt we weren't really meant to be in a real realtionship?? I don't know, too many actions on his part not just the ones that are mentioned here made me realize it will never work out between us.

Anyway, that was a while back, things have worsened between us now. I am trying to get out of this mess once and for all, so that I don't have to shed ONE MORE of my preciuos tears on him.

I hope your case is not so bad as mine. If it is, please realise he will never ever leave his wife. He is just shifting the blame on you. My 2 cents.

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Registered: 09-16-2003
Mon, 05-17-2004 - 2:18pm
And you know what, seeing last episode of "Friends" made me realize that something was not normal in my realtionship with OM. I know its only a sitcom, but it does reflect reality better than the reality shows that have been the craze lately. The part about Ross, where he pleads Rachel to stay in the airport, I thought that is how it should be. Sure he let her go in the morning to Paris, but as that day progressed he went thru mental hell to get back her to him. Now, that is what true love is - very demonstrative and very sure of what one wants. Well, I realize it took Ross 10 years to get there, but I thought four years was good enough for us. I guess I was wrong.

Sorry for going off the subject. I just needed to post this out there, very theraputic. I have no one else to confide in right now. This board is all I have, so bear with me if I boring you with my details.

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