Broken Hearted

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Registered: 09-28-2007
Broken Hearted
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Sun, 01-11-2009 - 11:02pm
He's gone...I think that it is really over...I know at times I said that this is what I wanted (or what would be best)...I just can't believe that he is really gone...What gives him the right to just walk out of my life like this?...Does he really not care or does he think I am not hurting and this is what I wanted?...Having no contact is killing me inside...Am I not worthy of proper closure to this relationship?...How could he just leave me and never look back?...I have considered showing up at places that he might be, but I don't want to be a stalker...But at the same time I am highly pissed that he would leave and not give me a chance to truly say good bye...I have considered calling his house, but that would probably cause more problems if his wife were to find out...How could he do this...I never would imagine him to be so cold and insensitive...What should I do, where should I go from here?...We are both married should I just walk away as he did and pretend it never happened?...And if so...how do I rid myself of the pain deep down inside?
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Registered: 12-15-2008
Mon, 01-12-2009 - 4:04am

Ouch hon, sounds like you're going through a real rough time.


Sounds like your AP, or former AP must have had some kind of change of heart. I can't remember the details of your story. All I can say is take it one day, one hour at a time. And as tempting as it might be, don't "accidentally" run into him at one of his usual haunts. Right now hurts like crazy, I'm sure, but morphing into a stalker will rob you of your dignity. I don't care how great the A was, it's not worth it.


Keep us posted!

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Registered: 11-13-2008
Mon, 01-12-2009 - 8:57am

I havent followed your posts but i would look at the possibilities of his falling sick, lost his phone or some scene at home,kwim?
Is anyone you can contact and find whats up with him? Maybe you could call his work,pretending it be a business call or something?

Just a thought before you reach the decisoin that he has disappeared.

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Registered: 09-28-2007
Mon, 01-12-2009 - 9:24am
I have called his work, and they said that he no longer works there, the phone that we would always use was his work cell. I have not talked to him in 3 months, we had a fight and said it was going to be over, but I didn't really think that it was going to be over, and now just knowing that I have no way to reach him, even if I wanted to is killing me. I guess he doesn't want me anymore...But, doesn't he owe me proper closure not a argument on the phone? I am really getting pissed because I feel that he did me bad.
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Registered: 11-13-2008
Mon, 01-12-2009 - 9:44am

((( hugs)))

Your AP might have been looking for an out( sorry !).You didnt mention what the fight was about but that could have been an excuse to end it.I am surprised that you only had his work cell and no other contact info? That wouldnt be fine with me.Your ex AP sounds flaky( sorry again !) but i guess as you havent heard from him in 3 months,consider him gone for good.IF he wanted, he would made 'some' kind of contact during this time ,knowing you were there and only had work cell.Its fishy.

(( hugs))) he wasnt and still is not worth you.