Can't stop thinking

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Registered: 09-22-2003
Can't stop thinking
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Mon, 09-22-2003 - 2:06pm
Sometimes I wish I could. MM and I have been together for 4 1/2 years. In the beginning, we would talk about how life would be if we hooked up. H and I really shouldn't have married, but because of our child I was pressured to do so. MM and his W have a child who is six. In January she got pregnant with #2. I know that he didn't want to have another one with her. He's been avoiding it for years now. Apparently she must have gotten tired waiting for him to change his mind, and took the initiative. She's supposed to have the baby next week. This won't be hard on the type of relationship we currently have, but it changes what we've been talking about for so long. I love him so much, that I'd be willing to wait for him. H and I have talked about divorcing, so it would make seeing MM much easier. Right now I am content with the relationship we have. Does anyone feel the same way? That you want to be with this person so bad, that you love them so much, that it might be years before things might work ou, would everyone stay. I want to, because I want to be with him. But does things like this work out.
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Registered: 09-20-2003
Tue, 09-23-2003 - 12:32am
I am somewhat in a similar situation. Although my MM is not having another baby with W, it very well may be years before he is at a point where he is willing to divorce her. I truly understand his reasons for staying in his current situation. However, it scares the hell out of me to think that it could be years before we will have anything even remotely resembling a normal relationship for the world to see. I know I have a very special connection with MM that I have not found in any of the relationships I've experienced throughout my life (I've never been married, myself). I face the decision of waiting in limbo for years in hopes that we have a future together, or returning to my routine of jumping from one empty relationship to the next, always searching for the qualities I so admire and enjoy in MM. Right now, I think MM is worth the wait, but if the good aspects ever stop outweighing the bad aspects, I might have to rethink my decision. After all the love he and I share is to celebrate in each others happiness and enhance each others lives. Obviously, it isn't always the best since he does go home to someone else every night. But if it the relationship ever became something that consisted mostly of pain and tears, I would walk away....and he would understand.

All we can do is see what time will unfold for us.

Annika

Brightest Blessings, Annika