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| Sat, 08-16-2003 - 12:36pm |
Wow girl, still going through this with L eh? We all used to think that time would change everything, obviously we were wrong. lol
O.K. hon, I know you and I know what you're doing and thinking right now. So stop pacing around, and stop worrying about this "date" so much. After all, IF you do go, it's not like you're making a commitment or anything, you're just going out on an INNOCENT date. Like one of the other posters said, it doesn't have to involve sex, so you're doing nothing wrong. After all, L doesn't own you.
We both know that odds are L will say he understands, and that if dating is what you feel you need to do, then do it. Meantime, he'll be kicking his butt over it. But you won't know that, cause he won't tell you. Communication has never been one of his greatest assets. lol. EXCEPT for that time in chat when he told Jo and I about how much he only wanted your happiness and how much he loved you. Which I still believe is true. The problem is, and always was, his failure to commit. That's a big part of why I lost my MM. He thought I wanted something he couldn't give me - commitment. He was soooooo wrong, but that's history now.
As to whether you should go out or not, well darlin, that's up to you. BUT we both know you'll feel lousy no matter what you decide. But at least if you do go, and have a wonderful dinner, then the white wine won't take effect so harshly when you get home, lol.
Just make sure that whatever you decide, you do it for the right reason. Don't do it to prove a point to L, because that's defeating the purpose. Just do it if you really and truly want to. Which from your hesitation about deciding, I don't think you really want to. But like I said, it's up to you.
Our hydro is due to be off for an hour or so, anytime, then back on HOPEFULLY for good. So I'll get AIM up and running as soon as the hydro crap is over. Gimme about an hour and a half lol
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O.K. hon, I know you and I know what you're doing and thinking right now. So stop pacing around, and stop worrying about this "date" so much. After all, IF you do go, it's not like you're making a commitment or anything, you're just going out on an INNOCENT date. Like one of the other posters said, it doesn't have to involve sex, so you're doing nothing wrong. After all, L doesn't own you.
We both know that odds are L will say he understands, and that if dating is what you feel you need to do, then do it. Meantime, he'll be kicking his butt over it. But you won't know that, cause he won't tell you. Communication has never been one of his greatest assets. lol. EXCEPT for that time in chat when he told Jo and I about how much he only wanted your happiness and how much he loved you. Which I still believe is true. The problem is, and always was, his failure to commit. That's a big part of why I lost my MM. He thought I wanted something he couldn't give me - commitment. He was soooooo wrong, but that's history now.
As to whether you should go out or not, well darlin, that's up to you. BUT we both know you'll feel lousy no matter what you decide. But at least if you do go, and have a wonderful dinner, then the white wine won't take effect so harshly when you get home, lol.
Just make sure that whatever you decide, you do it for the right reason. Don't do it to prove a point to L, because that's defeating the purpose. Just do it if you really and truly want to. Which from your hesitation about deciding, I don't think you really want to. But like I said, it's up to you.
Our hydro is due to be off for an hour or so, anytime, then back on HOPEFULLY for good. So I'll get AIM up and running as soon as the hydro crap is over. Gimme about an hour and a half lol
I LUV YA C
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