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|Wed, 08-14-2013 - 8:47pm|
Well, I see that the board hasn't really recovered from the switch. It is such a shame, this place used to kick some serious butt! Sure kept me on an even keel, even when I was on the wily roller coaster.
I don't know if anyone left here remembers me, so a short recap: I left my H of 25 years for AP. I fell in love with AP out of the blue, and I just couldn't bring myself to continue an affair behind H's back...so it was over.
I am happy (I think) to say that I am still with AP...we are coming up on six years now (!!). If it wasn't for the fact that he's still married, we are just like any other commited couple out there. Sure, we (still) have ups and downs...but we get through it somehow.
Right now he is away visiting family, and I am really starting to miss him! He left Friday, and I have no idea when he's coming back. When he first left, he would either call or text every day. However, I haven't heard from him in two days and to be perfectly honest, I am pretty steamed about it. I guess I just want some opinions on something that happened, that I think has caused him to stay silent.
So, I went out for drinks last night with a girlfriend. I didn't go too crazy, but I did catch a pretty decent buzz :-) The thing is though, I SMOKED. I used to smoke when I first got together with AP, and I pretty much quit right away. I haven't smoked for six years, until now ...and I've actually had a couple here and there (which is stopping NOW). I live in a small town, where everybody knows everybody...and to nip any tattle taler's in the bud, I decided to let AP know that I had slipped, and that I was sorry. The reason I did this is because on a previous occasion, a particular bartender at our bar told AP that I had been drinking shooters one night with a friend, when he wasn't there. He was not happy to hear that, and to that I said...oh well, that is too bad! So, I thought it was a good idea to be honest about my smoking. I guess honesty is not always the best policy because I have not heard a peep out of him since the day before yesterday.
Was I wrong to be honest with him? Would anybody here have appreciated being told the truth? I thought it was pretty inconsequential..I mean, it's not like I went out and slept with someone! I dunno, I just find myself hurt. On top of beating myself up for being so weak in the first place and having these few cigarettes over the last month or two.
Anyhow, I guess this post was twofold...one to say hi, and let any newbies know that long term A's can happen. They're not easy, but they CAN happen. The other reason was for some opinions on my honesty policy.