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| Sun, 05-30-2004 - 7:18pm |
It started out simply enough as innocent flirting among friends he's married I am not. I of course fall for the hero in him (he is a fireman). I babysit his two girls from time to time so I am at their house alot. Long story short this has been going on for 8 months we have ended it or at least tried twice now. The first time we called it quits was because he said he was beginning to have feelings for me. As much as I care for him and his girls I refuse to believe that. I know to much how much he cares for his wife as well. I know that seems hard to believe , but its true. To me he is an escape from reality. Its not the chase of getting to know someone. Of having to go through all the mind games. He knows me and he knows me well, or at least partially. At this point in our I guess you would call an Affair, we are at a stand still. Mainly because of me. I am back in Nursing School, his wife is having him work two jobs so she can cut back to part time.. so we dont get to see each other as much. But we do get to email. I guess my real question is , should I just let him go all together. The whole reason we got together in the first place was that we were both lonely. I didnt want a commitment, and he didnt want anything with strings attached and someone he could talk to. We have both made very best friends to each other and no matter what happens I dont see that changing. I dont know I am just confused I dont know where to go from here. I do care for him. Some of you that have been there tell me what you think. thanks the mistress

Lucky
You did not know if you loved this guy. Remove yourself from any situations that will give you the oportunity to develope stronger feelings.
You're single. Take your time and find the right person so neither one of you will find yourself in this kind of situation down the road.
Best of Luck
czy
You guys have hit it off with the friendship, and probably should back off for a bit. He has guys at the station that he can conversate. Even if he is telling you "you're the only one I can tell this to., and I really appreciate you talking to me!" Bullcrap!
If you do choose to get into the EMA, be prepared! It's a roller coaster of UPS & DOWNS. Tears and emotions will hit you like you've never experienced before. Since you work for this family the chances of you two being caught are greater.
Just an opinion from someone looking in with the 3rd eye.
jen
My reasoning: I think you are still vulnerable as you have not had very much time to learn to live with this decision. Make every effort on this trip not to be alone with MM and allow yourself to become confused again.
I hope this helps. I really don't want to see you become involved in something like this, that can bring you a lot of emotional pain.
Czy