D has begun...update - I'm doing better!
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| Fri, 05-21-2004 - 2:13pm |
I don't see that happening - especially since my heart is owned by another. And, I miss my OM terribly! I wish he was here to hold me through all of this, but at the same time I'm glad that I am doing it on my own. Two weeks and I will see him again...I'm counting down the days!
But, as far as the rest of my life goes, I'm just working my butt off trying to put back money, get settled, and deal with the next 60 days of waiting until that court date. Moving out my stuff will be the hardest part. Now that the papers are there, it seems a little more real, but I still see the hurt in my H's eyes...I hate that I am causing that. Even though he hurt me for years, I still don't wish any of this hurt on him now. I just want a chance of happiness, you know?
Anyway, just an update that I am still alive. I'm not perfectly wonderful right now...too much stress and emotion. But, I can see happiness down the road....Yall pray for me, as I will be for you. I will keep yall updated. Omaha and Rain, I miss your posts - they always kept me upbeat and confident. Come back!
Talk to you all soon, FMH6
