devastated and stunned, it's over

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devastated and stunned, it's over
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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 1:13pm
Just the other night i was up telling you all how happy i was. i never saw it coming.

Yesterday we were talking about going on vacation to Disney together. Now he says it's over. Telling his W about the possible trip led to a conversation between them about how this is tearing her apart. He says maybe we can still be friends. i can't be friends with the man i love.

the problem is, since i left my marriage, i am alone. i don't have anyone to call when i don't know how to do something around the house. My soon to be ex is not civil to me. i don't have any close girlfriends who live in my state. i have no one, i have tried to find more friends but am not doing a very good job. i am home with my daguther in the morning and work 4-midngit.

He was buying me all my groceries, and now i don't know where to get the money from. He gave me gas money. We talked all day long. We saw each other every day. Now it's just..over??

He told me over, and over, and OVER, almost daily, not to worry abou the future, that while he wasn't leaving his wife for me he would never leave me, and i could depend on him. How do i trust anyone ever after this, and what guy is going to want me anyway. i have a child, and a broken heart.

if i had seen it coming perhaps i wouldn't be so overwhlmed. i can't stop crying. just the other day i was telling you all how happy i was. How can i ever trust again. i am so damaged.

i love this man more than anyone else in the world, we have a connection, more than anyone i have ever been with. he's only my second when it comes to sex. i love him so very much.

Maybe i can be friends with him. i just dont nkow what to do.

Thanks,

jenny


Edited 3/11/2004 1:16 pm ET ET by jennlynnk

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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 1:24pm
I am sorry Jenny. SOmetimes things hit when we least expect it, doesn't it?? I don't what else to say except we all are here for you, if you need us. Please take careful of yourself.
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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 1:28pm


::HUGS::

Oh, Jenn, I'm so sorry! I know you are miserable right now. You'll be in my thoughts and if there is anything I can do, please let me know.

Hang in there, love your daughter and don't give up hope. Your future may not be with MM, but you _do_ have one and I'm sure that you will make it a beautiful one.

"Tears may last through the night, but joy cometh in the morning."


Cazrida

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Registered: 12-23-2003
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 1:36pm
Jenn, I know this is hard for you and i am crying after reading your post. You will get over this, it may seem impossible but it will happen, trust me. And please don't say that no one would want you b/c of your child, i have two and my MM has four. You need to take a break from men right now. Now is the time to get strong and take care of yourself, learn to do things for yourself, you can do it. Just be strong and believe in yourself. Hang in there and know we're here for you!



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Registered: 10-13-2003
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 1:50pm

((((Jenny)))), I'm sorry that this has happened.

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Registered: 01-21-2004
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 2:06pm

jenn, honey, i am so sorry about how the R/A ended!

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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 2:16pm
Jenny,

I'm so sorry to hear this.Please know you can count on us.

Renee

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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 6:05pm
(((((((((((((jenny)))))))))))))))

I am so sorry sweety....

If you need an ear...EVER...

E-mail me your phone number...I'll call you, and you can cry on my shoulder...

Buckarooblues@aol.com

Or put me on AOL/AIM if you have it, but e-mail me you did, as I'd have to add you to my list...

Or Buckaroobluestoo for Yahoo chat...

Or Buckarooblues@hotmail.com for MSN messenger...

Easiest way would be to send me your phone number...I have lots of minutes to use...

=)

Laurie

((((((((((jenny))))))))))))))))))