Did he lie? a change of heart? or..
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Did he lie? a change of heart? or..
| Mon, 05-17-2004 - 9:51pm |
He left work Wed afternoon to leave for a convention early the next am. He turns in the doorway and says "I'm outta here." No wink. No smile. No nothing. I jumped up as he walked out and watched him walk across the parking lot. He saw my pout al the way across the lot cuz when he called for his boss he said" I saw you. What's with the sad face. I'll call you later." He never did. He had a BAD morning back today and we both were raising voices by 10am not exactly yelling at each other (Damn He's even sexy when he's angry. Luckily, he's not an angry person.)
I don"t know if I upset him on a work level this AM or if he's preoccupied/hung over or maybe he had a change of heart?
I'm on my fourth round of tears for the day counting the first ones from when I slammed my already swollen knee into my desk for the second time. After that work got ugly and the volume went up! Why this when three weeks ago today he dropped the L Word? You oughta see my mascara..and DH is due home in 1/2 hr or so At least I have him to kiss the knot on my knee.
Edited 5/17/2004 10:02 pm ET ET by h12j22r71

I doubt seriously he had a change of heart. If you look at this like as if you were just b/f - g/f in an otherwise normal relationship you wouldn't be thinking this. I think we tend to think of an A as shaky at best because either one of us could change our mind about being in it. You could have that happen in a nice normal relationship too, but we tend to analize every move and sound the other person makes. Why? Because in a reality what we are doing is wrong, and the fear of being caught or the fact that we know down deep it can't go beyond where it is now makes us realize it is a very fragile thing.
I wouldn't worry, take a day or two to act "normal" and you will see nothing has changed.
dd
Maybe he thinks I took someone up on an offer while he was out of town. I don't know but it hurts.
I'm leaving Fri AM on trip with DH. Back Tues Am ...maybe he will miss me or I'll come to my senses. Om is great, but I wish one of us would of stepped back instead of forward or something...I warned him.
He's played around before. He says he never fell in love before ( in a affair)