listen, you have to do what makes you feel better..but guard your feelings please...it sounds like you really are feeling K....if you are and he's available to you like that..then don't mess it up....please....XAP still has a hold on you as does mine on me..no matter how much he pisses me off now...lol..yeah i've reached the point where XAP can do wrong..before he couldn't do no wrong....so like my granny used to say..God rest her soul, "SH!T on him" lol lol lol....
i hope that you find comfort in going to see him, if you in fact do go...but i hope that comfort doesn't seep over into that angst and anxiety and old very strong feelings you once had for him.....i hope you can contain it and keep it where it needs to stay..and that is that little place in your heart reserved for him..
((HUGS))
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
hey cplove2007, i am glad you went to see him if that's what you needed to do...yes you have to make decisions for yourself and everything posted or written here is an opinion...i am happy that you've made a decision to take care of yourself..that's the best thing that you can do for both you and XAP...i am also glad to hear that your love for him is everlasting and will remain true....some of us are like that when it comes to love and that's regardless of the pain and anguish...don't let your love for him destroy you and that's what's going to be successful for you in moving forward with your life and taking care of yourself...i too have moved on and am seeing someone else as well who is single and very available...with the same things to offer as XAP...but i find it hard to make the transition...guess what? i'm trying though...it's not like i am stuck in a rut..and i do feel good about myself for that...although the love i receive from XaP is the best love i've ever had, and it's passionate and exciting and like nothing i've ever felt..it's also the most difficult relationship/experience i've ever put myself through...although xap never said he was leaving..and i didn't ask, i also didn't feel like waiting for ANYTHING from him...i became not so nice toward him at times because of it...the longer we let it ensue the deeper my emotions and feelings became and it hurt too..so i had to stop it for the both of us...before it got out of hand...it was just the RIGHT THING TO DO...may not have been what i wanted to do..but, it was right....
again..((HUGS)) to you and i'm very very glad that you are moving along...forward that is.....
take care
tyger
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
I am new to this board and therefore do not know your entire story, but I disagree with your comment of "It won't take me back". I think seeing him and spending time with him WILL take you back. Perhaps you won't go back to the exact spot you were in a year ago, but it will take you back to a certain point.
If you choose to see this guy, I hope you'll go into with a plan of action because you're going to be faced with some hefty emotions.
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listen, you have to do what makes you feel better..but guard your feelings please...it sounds like you really are feeling K....if you are and he's available to you like that..then don't mess it up....please....XAP still has a hold on you as does mine on me..no matter how much he pisses me off now...lol..yeah i've reached the point where XAP can do wrong..before he couldn't do no wrong....so like my granny used to say..God rest her soul, "SH!T on him" lol lol lol....
i hope that you find comfort in going to see him, if you in fact do go...but i hope that comfort doesn't seep over into that angst and anxiety and old very strong feelings you once had for him.....i hope you can contain it and keep it where it needs to stay..and that is that little place in your heart reserved for him..
((HUGS))
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
I wanted to update you and anyone else who kindly responded to my plea.
hey cplove2007, i am glad you went to see him if that's what you needed to do...yes you have to make decisions for yourself and everything posted or written here is an opinion...i am happy that you've made a decision to take care of yourself..that's the best thing that you can do for both you and XAP...i am also glad to hear that your love for him is everlasting and will remain true....some of us are like that when it comes to love and that's regardless of the pain and anguish...don't let your love for him destroy you and that's what's going to be successful for you in moving forward with your life and taking care of yourself...i too have moved on and am seeing someone else as well who is single and very available...with the same things to offer as XAP...but i find it hard to make the transition...guess what? i'm trying though...it's not like i am stuck in a rut..and i do feel good about myself for that...although the love i receive from XaP is the best love i've ever had, and it's passionate and exciting and like nothing i've ever felt..it's also the most difficult relationship/experience i've ever put myself through...although xap never said he was leaving..and i didn't ask, i also didn't feel like waiting for ANYTHING from him...i became not so nice toward him at times because of it...the longer we let it ensue the deeper my emotions and feelings became and it hurt too..so i had to stop it for the both of us...before it got out of hand...it was just the RIGHT THING TO DO...may not have been what i wanted to do..but, it was right....
again..((HUGS)) to you and i'm very very glad that you are moving along...forward that is.....
take care
tyger
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
I am new to this board and therefore do not know your entire story, but I disagree with your comment of "It won't take me back". I think seeing him and spending time with him WILL take you back. Perhaps you won't go back to the exact spot you were in a year ago, but it will take you back to a certain point.
If you choose to see this guy, I hope you'll go into with a plan of action because you're going to be faced with some hefty emotions.
tygerzize:
I tried to email you privately, but I don't think I can...it said an email wasn't entered in your profile.
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