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| Tue, 06-08-2010 - 5:53pm |
I have posted before, I am going to tell the whole story, so hopefully, I can get some more opinions.
3 years ago, this man was my daughters high school teacher, he was going through a divorce, my daughter would babysit his children, and he is very close with most of his students, fixes things for them, will let the kids change oil at the shop, ect. We started seeing each other at school functions, and I noticed that we had a strong connection to each other. We starting talking and one thing led to another and the relationship started. It was a summer thing ending right when school started.
We decided that this needed to be a secret because he wasn't comfortable having a relationship with a students mother. He didn't want her last years of school to be uncomfortable for her, with students ect.
I feel in love with him, but failed to tell him and everyone found out about us, my daughter knew and she in turn told all her friends and they were all happy about us being together. He told me that he was talking to another woman on line and that he was going to meet her, I told him I was fine with that, but was not ok with that.
Well when he met her, he stopped having a relationship with me, but failed to tell me that he was sleeping with her, I found out by one of his students. He still wanted to be friends and told me to call whenever I needed something.
They got married a year later, we still had feelings for each other, he would see me at school functions and the chemistry was still there. My daughter

Honestly, I'm seeing some red flags here.
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Be smart, take care or YOU. Get out and find a way to meet new people, new friends, new activities...so you can let go of this fantasy.
Yesterday I would have agreed with all of you! Today is another story, I am missing him so much that my heart aches. I know that my heart smiles when I am with him. I haven't seen him or talked to him since monday and I am having withdrawals.
I keep thinking that he must care for me or he wouldn't of walked back into my life. I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason. The only reason I can come up with is that he is not happy in his marriage and god knows that I haven't been happy in years with my relationship.
I have a ton of things going on in my life at the moment and our affair is the most positive, if that makes sense. My son is currently deploying next week for another tour in this god forsaken war. I wear so many different emotions daily, that I don't know how to feel about anything. I don't want to use him as my crutch, but lately it seems that I cant go through the week without hearing his voice or feeling his touch.
At the moment he is my rock, we can talk about anything except our feelings for one another, we agreed not to bring emotions into this, so I haven't told him my feelings, which are that I love him and need him in my life. He does know that I love him. I just don't know how he feels towards me and its driving me crazy.
I will see him tomorrow evening so maybe I will wait and see what he has to say, or maybe I will bring up my own questions and see what his response is. Thanks for listening to all my babbling!!