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| Wed, 11-03-2010 - 5:37pm |
So, again, after spending time with my AP this weekend, I had a big surge of emotion that was hard to control.
| Wed, 11-03-2010 - 5:37pm |
So, again, after spending time with my AP this weekend, I had a big surge of emotion that was hard to control.
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Wow ... I think we had the same day ... LOL ... I had an amazing day with AP yesterday and as always the emotions were running high and deep today ... I was actually feeling really happy about everything ... and I just couldn't leave well enough alone ... We are not like some A's where emotions are off limits ... we are both fairly emotional ... so I sent him a sappy text, but it was how I was feeling ... it basically told him I loved him which is no secret, he tells me he loves me too, all the time ... in fact he probably says it more often than I do ... but then I told him that I did want to be with him ...I also said I want a million dollars too but odn't expect that to happen either ... I told him i know life didn't put us together like that, but that I do think about holding his hand in public and getting to see him everyday and share my life with him ... I also made it clear that I had no expectations of those things happening but that if life were different I would e with him in a heartbeat ...He responded that he loves me and if he didn't know his W he would want to be with me too, but that wasn't the case and he has always been honest about that ... which he has ... It still stung a little which was my own fault because I brought it up ... I guess after all the close intimate moments I did think that on some level even if it would never be a possibility he did want to be with me too ... how else do you explain over a year and a half of this ... He says he wants to be with his wife but if he didn't know her then it would be different ... Still don't know how to take all ... He cried yesterday telling me how happy he was to be there with me and that he would never regret a second of it ... I just can't wrap my head around it all ... I
Maybe they get a secret handbook we don't know about, The Cheating MM's Guide to Stringing Women Along.
Crap crap crap!
10:05 PM: Huh...so he's still awake and he asked what I was up.
Let's see if I can get my thoughts on all this out without confusing you even more :smileywink:.
Regarding your mom, sounds like it could just be intuition.
anotherseyes
ITA with Anotherseyes. I'm fortunate in a way, because AP is single, so theoretically we can continue to see each other after my M is officially done. But, that adds a whole different type of drama to the mix!
I agree that moms know how their kids act, and she's sensing something "off", but probably hasn't seen actual evidence of an A.
You've got a lot of choices. I
AE-I don't think my mom would ever ask me straight out.
Lexi, yeah, I know it will be up to me if I want to end it but I just KNOW it would drive me crazy to be alone and still be so wrapped up in him.
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