Drinking the wine...wondering why...
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|Thu, 07-26-2012 - 12:15am|
I'm really digging deep to understand why I needed this validation. I only wanted it from that A-hole AP....if only I could get rid of that feeling...it's the last nagging thing!
Why do I need that? Why doesn't H's validation which he gives me not enough? The other night we were watching something together (H & I) and I made a reference to something obscure...he got all sweet and looked at me...he said "The fact that you just said that...I love you." I mean it's not a big deal but all kinds of little things like that with H don't do a thing for me. When AP gives me a TEENY TINY compliment it makes my whole year! Are most people this way? Do I need to bite the bullet and invest in counseling to understand it or what?
I just wanted AP to adore me. That desire was overwhelming and it was independant of the way I felt about him.