driving myself mad!

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Registered: 06-01-2010
driving myself mad!
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Fri, 07-02-2010 - 1:40pm

Hi all,


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Registered: 03-26-2010
Fri, 07-02-2010 - 2:28pm

So wait, you were supposed to meet up and he never showed?

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Registered: 06-01-2010
Fri, 07-02-2010 - 2:54pm

Thanks Jane sure could use the support right now I am getting myself worked up into a right state probably because I am so angry at him.


He is like this all the time so I am used to it now and he knows that he should contact me even if it's just to let me know he's ok. You are right I am allowing this so he thinks I will tolerate anything. Time to harden up I think. I won't be sending him anymore messages let him sweat and see how he likes it lol


to answer your question yes I am fed up not of him but this whole situation. I know that this A is so not me and he knows it as well. I don't think he wants to lose me and I do believe he loves me but this can't go on. I am a SW I can find a SM if I want to but the trouble is I love AP.


Maybe this weekend will give me some time to reflect on what I am willing to tolerate with AP. Over the last few weeks I have done a lot of this and a lot of soul searching about this A. He knows the only reason I am still in it is because I love him. but sometimes you have to sacrifice that for your own peace of mind and happiness.


I am not happy in this A but I am happy with AP and unless things change soon I think I will be walking away from him as hard as it will be. I just can't put myself through anymore emotional stress.


ali x

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Registered: 05-03-2010
Fri, 07-02-2010 - 3:57pm

Many ((((hugs)))) ali!


I agree that he probably thinks it's no big deal to not contact you, especially if you've tolerated this kind of behavior for awhile and always forgiven him.

anotherseyes

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Registered: 06-01-2010
Fri, 07-02-2010 - 4:18pm

Thanks another,