enjoying this too much

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Registered: 08-07-2009
enjoying this too much
Wed, 05-12-2010 - 9:42am

I have officially entered into a full blown affair. AP and I had IC last week and i cannot get him out of my head ever since. I've always thought about him but now it's more of a I need him feeling. He is the voice of reason in all this, says we can't meet to often or we will get too attached, yet he is the one planning to come see me days later. He has been my best friend for a long time, we only recently decided to take it to the next level.

We talk about being together, we both tried ending our marriages but it was too hard for both of us. We've decided to give it time. I know there is a very real possibility he will not leave his wife. He told me he doesn't think he can. In the back of my mind though I think one day he will. Yesterday I found out they are having issues again. I think it's only a matter of time.

Right now I think we are both so hopefully in love we are having a hard time maintaining regular life. I know everyone says that, but we are in constant contact and are both very open about everything we are feeling. I am very lucky to have him in my life, even if I can't have the whole him.