Feel like ive been hit with a truck

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Registered: 11-16-2009
Feel like ive been hit with a truck
Wed, 01-13-2010 - 10:24am
After my talk with SG yesterday I am feeling so many different emotions. I feel like a naive idiot, stupid, upset and very disillusioned. The person I thought I knew was not the person at all. Yesterday I saw a completely different person, someone I was so shocked at that I felt sick. A very selfish, self centered person who is only concerned about what HE wants. How could I have been so stupid? I am more angry at myself for not having better control over the situation. At the same time I am sad because I felt like this was the perfect situation for me and we got along well, laughed.....but I see that is just smoke. It wasn't real. It is all a big scam to do what he had to. I realize he does not care one single bit about me or my feelings. It hurts to think someone who knew my history, knew the pain Ive gone through could be so callous. I haven't figured out if he is just a really immature dumb guy or if he is a smart con. Either way I am not in a good place today. I know, in time I'll be ok. Time does heal all wounds. A guy friend told me to expect him to contact me again, that he knows he will. Not sure why he would when he now knows I am not going to just be a hole for him to fill. Guys. I really do not understand them at all!