Feel so alone...

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-14-2008
Feel so alone...
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Sun, 12-14-2008 - 8:04pm
I have been in an A for 6 months now. He is married. This is my first time being involved with a MM (two kids still at home, 20 years). For some reason, I thought our relationship was special. However, a few days ago, I learned he has been involved in several past affairs, including a very serious one that lasted 3 years and ended very negatively, as he led her on about leaving his wife. But, at the end of the day, he couldn't leave her. He says he doesn't want a replay of that relationship and has made it very clear he cannot leave his wife. We talk every day and night and see each other twice a week. My feelings are getting rather serious. But I know the A will never be anything more than it is now. I don't know how to deal with the emotions that arise when he goes on vacations and holidays with his wife. Or tells me he has feelings for me, but this can only be fun in the end. We have a great connection and amazing passion. This is more difficult than I ever thought it would be. I am 31 years old, divorced and have no children of my own. I go back and forth between feeling happy and miserable. Can anyone relate to me? Do you have any advice?
iVillage Member
Registered: 12-06-2007
Mon, 12-15-2008 - 9:20am

Affairs are, of course,