Feeling down...yet again
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Feeling down...yet again
| Thu, 03-18-2004 - 11:42am |
I don't know why, but I'm feeling down again today. It has been almost a month since I was able to see my OW and unfortunately, I won't be able to see her for at least two more months. We talk almost every night on IM and the phone, but it seems we are drifting apart a bit lately. We both have busy lives so sometimes we are tired late at night. I guess I just feel like she has been a little distant lately. I know that is to be expected. But I've had jealousy problems in the past and I don't want to let those out again so I am coming here to vent. I know she loves me and even though she doesn't have to be faithful to me (she is S and I am M), she has been and continues to be. So I really have nothing to be jealous about, but she tells me about her day and everytime she mentions a guy showing her attention I feel pangs of jealousy. It doesn't happen that often, but when it does it is kind of like a punch in the stomach. I think it is because I'm so far away and I know I can't see her right now. So again, I don't really know what I'm looking for, just a pick-me-up I guess. Thanks everyone.

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Your suggestion really made me think. If I were to see her, I would have to drive about 5 hours and probably only be able to spend a couple of hours talking. And then 5 hours back. It does seem insane, but if she can make it work, I'm going to try to do it. I need to at least have those few moments with her. Of course I'll have to come up with an excuse for being gone from home so long and come up with the money for gas, but right now that sounds like a great idea.
Thanks for the support. And for understanding that illogical anxiety that comes from being separated by time and distance.
I always think of the movie "City of Angels" after Meg Ryan dies and they ask Nick Cage was it worth becoming mortal to then lose her and his answer was "It was worth just to be able to touch her once"
We are here for u, and suffering along with you.
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