Feeling guilty and bad today....

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Registered: 01-20-2004
Feeling guilty and bad today....
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Thu, 04-22-2004 - 12:02pm
I am feeling really bad today. As all of you know I left my H shortly after my A started (bad M anyway). Last night right before I went to bed with MM (now b/f, he left M also) my DD called to tell me she lost her first tooth. She was so excited about the tooth fairy coming and it wasn't me. It was her dad and his new live in g/f. I should have been there for that and I cried myself to sleep feeling like the most horrible creature in the world for doing this to my children. To make matters worse H called me yesterday (while I was with b/f) to tell me that he still loved me and if I wanted to come home he'd kick g/f out in a heartbeat. B/f was listening to this conversation and I had to politely find a way to turn down H (because I do feel some guilt for leaving him and hurting him so badly) but at the same time I had to do it in a way that didn't make b/f uncomfortable. I just feel so guilty for doing this to my family. I think I'll go cry now...that's all. Thanks for listening.

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Registered: 04-16-2004
Fri, 04-23-2004 - 7:51am
Greeneyesofblue....I thought you said you were going to leave the board because you didn't want to stir up trouble....at any rate....if you stayed, you'll see every situation is different and we do not judge each other.
cl-noregretsyet (co-cl of MAS board)
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