feeling horrible the next day

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Registered: 06-08-2010
feeling horrible the next day
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Tue, 06-15-2010 - 6:54pm

Hi. I am new here, but I have been reading a lot of posts. I have been wanting to share my story, but it's not that easy to get it out; at least not yet. So I decided to start with just a question that has been eating me for a long time.


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Registered: 06-08-2010
Wed, 06-16-2010 - 1:16pm

Hi Lucyford,


Thank you for your support and your story. I really hope your AP will contact you very soon. Sometimes it seems like there is nothing worse than waiting for his text, doesn't it? Fortunately, my AP is good at texting me every day. He tries to do it several times a day, but still it seems like it's never enough for me. :( There were a couple days, Sundays (that's when he misses me the most), when we were able to text each other almost whole day, every few minutes. That felt amazing! It felt almost like being with him. But these days are rare.


I did try to talk to him about my feelings, but I don't know if he gets the whole picture. Yesterday, he said that he knows that it's more difficult for me and told me to try to just live one day at a time. I know he cares about me, he says he loves me, but every now and then I still wonder if it's just sex for him. When I mentioned that to him he got really upset, but what can I do when every time we meet the first thing he wants is to get intimate (at least he asks if he can do it :)). I guess I should not complain about it because at the end that's what I want too. What I really want is to be able to spend more than just 1 or 2 hours together. But with our situation, even that much is not possible anymore. His W is off work for a week or more and my H's business trips are almost over and kids are home on summer break. Not knowing when we will get together is driving me crazy. At least I see him a few times a week at karate academy

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Registered: 05-03-2010
Wed, 06-16-2010 - 4:23pm

I completely understand.

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