feeling kinda low

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feeling kinda low
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Sun, 10-19-2008 - 2:04pm

saw ap last week monday for lunch, tuesday we ate out..then went back to my place he was there until midnight, wednesday no AP, thursday for lunch-he gave me the biggest bottle of Belvedere Vodka that's sold (love my Vodka..he's given this to me before), friday no AP was mad at his azz because of thursday's discussion at lunch and how he treats me like a kid sometimes..he even calls me "KID" at times like i'm his daughter, saturday-didn't know AP was coming over but again my son knew...he came to see my son off to his homecoming formal and to give him money for afterwards to buy my son's date dinner or whatever they were gonna do...it was a surprise for me i guess..they like to play tricks on me..(no AP is not son's father..)


After we dropped my son off, I was in a funky mood..things have been welling up inside me for a while..what I mean is, I have a great AP, he loves me dearly and I love him dearly..but..I have questions that I'm afraid to ask him because I'm very scared that they will turn into an argument or somehow make him leave me...although I know you can't control what someone does, they are gonna leave if they want to leave.

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Tue, 10-21-2008 - 2:20pm

You crack me up reading your post.

 

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Tue, 10-21-2008 - 2:51pm

heck naw i didn't call and apologize..and haven't heard from him...won't apologize until i feel like it..don't feel like it..but he's gonna stop trying to be seen and heard....he never comes in too much ...he heard me tell my co worker i was going to make coffee and asked if she wanted some..then he goes and shuffles in the break room and sits down...ha ha ha ha...rotflmao...he just wants me to see that he's here..okay dokey buddy i see ya..that's how i view it..and no doubt we'll be fine eventually..i'm not really worried.because we did start as friends...he knows what he's up against in this type of relationship and so do i....there are ups and downs and it will be a roller coaster ride....


btw..yes i'm waiting for him to call me first....

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Tue, 10-21-2008 - 4:13pm

Hi tygerzize.

 

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Tue, 10-21-2008 - 8:57pm

wow it is quite interesting that you say that...wow...because i DO NOT put up with anything from any man...i love men..and so want to have a life's partnership with the perfect man for me....that's what i want so badly in life...


you asked somethings will answer in red i guess


So, what is your AP's plan, as far as you're concerned?

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Wed, 10-22-2008 - 12:49am

I enjoy reading your post. You are so real. I can relate to what you are saying.

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Wed, 10-22-2008 - 7:11am

Thank you for elaborating on your story.

 

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Wed, 10-22-2008 - 7:59am
yes your feelings are very very real...and mine are ..and i always acknowledge that..however, i can't lose sight of my situation or what goes on between us...he says i'm a little firecracker...well i know it...but, you gotta take the good with the bad...and it's special when you can weather the bad from someone as well....no we haven't spoken yet..but i suppose we will....he'll call or i'll call..still not crying..some women would get really nervous about NC...i do get nervous but try to maintain.....The bottom line is I love him very much and know he loves me..that's what keeps me from going nuts....
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Wed, 10-22-2008 - 8:00am
i should not say i haven't heard from him...my son has heard from him and he does keep sitting in front of my window being loud on purpose...i think it's cute.....
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Wed, 10-22-2008 - 8:05am

oh no..i'll never lose sight of what i want and need...in life period..i knew after having a kid at 17..i didn't want anymore

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Registered: 01-12-2008
Wed, 10-22-2008 - 8:06am

"guess i just wanted to know how everyone deals with their lows?"


Not with alcohol.