Feeling a little blue
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Feeling a little blue
| Sun, 09-28-2003 - 1:45am |
I shold be on cloud 9, but today I'm feeling down. I've been in my EMA for about 5 months now. Both of us are married and not intending to leave our marriages. I have, of course, fallen for him more than I ever wanted to. We give each other what is mssing in our Ms. We spent the entire afternoon together yesterday and it ws wonderful. Although I have resigned myself to the fact that we most likely will never have anythng more than we have now, and don't expect anything more, I am blue today missing him so much. Even though I am married, I have much more freedom than he does. His wife keeps a pretty tight reign on him. She is always calling him and checking in with him. During our afternoon yesterday she called and he left the room to talk to her and then came back and told me he only had a little more time because he told her he'd be home soon. It just made me sad that I will always be second to his family. My family, of course, comes first too, but when I make time for him, I make sure it's for him alone.
OK, thanks for letting me vent. I guess EMAs are not supposed to be easy and I guess I have to figure out when it becomes not worth the sad times that come along with the good times. Right now, it's still worth it to me.
TA
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| Sun, 09-28-2003 - 9:26am |
hi tlalex big hugs to you sweetie l sure do know how you feel about being able be with you mm. in my case l'm single one here and mm is married. last time saw my baby is past jan he spent the news year holiday with at my house so great miss so much. he lives in never state and his W has very bad ALZHEMERI'S so he ahs to take care of her which he should do but still hard on me.l worry about all him all the time.he does love me him like love him so much. hang in their ok sweetie we are here for you. hugs kim
