Maybe professional person (psychologist/terapist) can help you sort this stuff out. Sounds to me like you have a deep seated problem that you're pacifying with men. Until you understand that no man can fix what's wrong in you, (why you're doing what you're doing) you're bound to keep repeating these types of behavior.
Maybe a good time to find a good therapist or psychologist.
Maybe professional person (psychologist/terapist) can help you sort this stuff out. Sounds to me like you have a deep seated problem that you're pacifying with men. Until you understand that no man can fix what's wrong in you, (why you're doing what you're doing) you're bound to keep repeating these types of behavior.
Maybe a good time to find a good therapist or psychologist.