Feeling pains of guilt
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|Wed, 03-26-2003 - 6:57pm|
Now on, with my issue of guilt. I know MM's, W, pretty good (not by choice). She is a lonely person. She is a product of her enviroment. Her mother had 13 children by 10 different men. Just to paint you a picture of how she was raised. She had a twin but she died at birth. She is very with drawn, there is not one person she can say is a "friend" other than her older sister. She does "nothing for entertainment". She works, comes home and sits in her room and reads her bible. She goes to bible study on Wednesday nights, and goes to church on Sunday, and that is the end of her social activites. She lives in a world all her own. When you look at it, it's really kind of sad.
This is what makes me feel guitly. Here is this person, who has never done anything to anyone, pretty much minds her own business (until you mess with her husband), tries to live a "Christian" life, she insists that her daughter be involved with church as well as school, basically a good person.
Here I am sleeping with her husband. How awful is that. I should have never started this EMA. I'll be the first to admit, and MM will too, the only problem he has with his W, is her need to control everything, and everybody in her life. She is a major "control freak". She runs everybody away from her. That is why she doesn't have any frineds.
Just needed to vent a little tonight. They have put monitors on our computers at work, so I can't post while at work. What a bummer.