feeling very down today

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Registered: 08-08-2009
feeling very down today
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Sat, 03-06-2010 - 5:12pm
I can't stop thinking about him. Its all I can do to not cry. Its very tough today.

MoonUnit

MoonUnit

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Sat, 03-06-2010 - 9:48pm

I have no wonderful words of wisdom, but having been thru days like that I wanted to send you hugs!


When AP and I were NC for two months( I assumed I would never hear from him again) I found that I would allow myself "tear" days and allow myself to wallow in my self pity , but the next day I had to try to smile. the days did get easier.


I know you don't want to hear it, but time does heal and life is full of ups and downs.

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Sat, 03-06-2010 - 10:09pm

i broke down in the bathroom at work today. my best friend called me on the phone, texted me, and i just don't feel like talking to her. it's how i feel right now. i'm very lonely and depressed.

i have some of his things i have been thinking of boxing up and returning to him, but through the mail.

why didn't you and your AP contact each other for 2 months. hearing other peoples stories helps me.

MoonUnit

MoonUnit

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Sat, 03-06-2010 - 10:27pm

Again, I am sorry you are suffering, AP and I were NC for two months because his wife found some text's from me on his phone. He worked on his marriage for two months for his kids sake, two months to the day he said he couldn't stay away any longer, I truly had convinced myself I would never hear from him again, but missed and longed for him every day, but at the same time I started to heal.


I was so happy to hear from him,and we are closer now than we were before,

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Registered: 09-07-2009
Sun, 03-07-2010 - 2:22am

Moon so sorry you are suffering right now. We all have our moments of great sadness. Please hang in there...it is hard I know.

For me music helps when I have tattered ends.

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Sun, 03-07-2010 - 7:40am
i remember my AP saying that to me, know one can you happy except for yourself.

MoonUnit

MoonUnit

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Sun, 03-07-2010 - 2:05pm

This is my first time on this site. It has been so helpful to read some of the comments. I so sorry that u r having a bad day. I am a single parent and I have been involved in a A for six months. A was against everything I believed In. I never meant for it to happen, but I have fallen in love with him, and the same for him. We work together and when we started, we were working 7 days a week. We spent a lot of time together. He has a good life, and I don't won't to cause any problems. He has two kids and he loves them so much. He is a wonderful father. He feels like we are soulmates. We enjoy eachother so much. I don't look for him to leave. We are only working 5 days now. So I have been having a hard time on the weekends. I miss him so much and I try and put on a happy face, but I'm miserable without him. We IM eachother all weekend, but that's not enough. I sit at home thinking about him spending time with his wife. It's like I live for Mondays. How did I let myself end up here? It's like my heart and mind are telling me two different things. We have tried several times to end it, but we end up crying and being miserables for those days. I don't know what to do. A part of me wants him all to myself but the other part of me know how much he loves his kids and how sad he would b without them. I've never been the type to share. What do I do?


Secretlife35
Secretlife35