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Feeling Weak
| Fri, 08-28-2009 - 7:11am |
So ap went to a family reunion for a week or so and i didn't hear from him. It started out feeling like it was a good thing, the nc we had for almost two weeks, and I started to feel like i mite be able to move past this A, and all the emotional turmoil it bombards me with. I was getting to the point where i was really annoyed he didn't contact me, and i started imagining all kinds of crazy scenarios. I know full well that when he is busy with his W/kids, and when he's in a bad mood, the contact is limited. I just always take it personally. I wanted to talk to him SO bad, and when i saw him online last nite, my heart soared. He didn't see me in time and logged off, and then I was totally crushed! I never experienced my heart falling thru the floor like it did when i saw him sign off and didn't get to talk to him. I really thought he saw me online and didn't want to talk to me. I was on the verge of crying about it, actually had tears in my eyes, when lo and behold, guess who is back online IM'ing me? He did see me, and signed back on just to talk to me for the next hour til i cut off the conversation and went to bed.
Now, we have a date for tonite. I hope it works out so we can see each other.
Talk about an emotional roller coaster......why do i think negative things like that about someone who is so special to me?
Now, we have a date for tonite. I hope it works out so we can see each other.
Talk about an emotional roller coaster......why do i think negative things like that about someone who is so special to me?

Hi you guys,
I am the same way. My insecurities seem magnified x10 in this R. If he doesnt call when he says or cancels plans or doesnt answer the phone, I automatically think it's because of me. I think, maybe he doesn't love me anymore, or he's losing interest or maybe it was something I did or said or