finally amitted ILU to AP.
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finally amitted ILU to AP.
| Wed, 08-20-2008 - 7:44am |
it's been a nice 2 days and yesterday was even nicer. when i got out of work last night, i seen my AP was still busy with a client, so i went cleaned my car, did a couple of other things and when i came back he was finished. i wont even walk in his job when he's with a client. he told me he had another client coming back at closing, so do you have time later to hang. he already called home and said he was going to be a few hours late. i said sure. well later he took me out, out side of work(mind you we've never done this, never went mia, or hung out side of work in 16 months), always in work time. we went for an hour drive in his ride which he knows i love. all over. we talked. i said to him what have i ever done for him to be so good to me. he told me i have a pure heart, i'm so sweet to him, good to him, he's never met any one like me. then to my surprise he asked why i'm with him. he's never done that, ever. i told him, i love his body and looks, but it goes deeper then that. i've always looked for some one with his strong personality. i said you tell it like it is, don't lie, the love for your children is endearing, that right there is why i want him so bad, and i said it, i said i love you as a person. i said i'm afraid to admit this, but i love you as a person. i did say when i found out from some else about your wife having a baby, i was shocked and hurt and didn't handle it well. he said that was a bad time. i said it least your honest with me now in telling me your going away for 2 weeks. he took time for me and risking his self to be with me out side of allotted time in public. he's always been paranoid about that. that's how we've kept our marriages and our affair safe for 16 months to. then we parked and made sweet love.

My OM thinks a lot of good things about me, but I can't imagine he'd ever say I have a "pure heart". Neither one of us would say the other has a "pure heart". We both know that the deceit and lies that our R is based on kind of spoils any purity of anything really.
Sweet, yeah. Intelligent, fun, sexy, caring even. Honest or "pure" no.
Sometimes I just think the flowery talk is a little... fake or something, I dunno.
But I'm glad for you that you had a wonderful day and got to say what you wanted to say to him.
Some would say that I fell from grace... but I didn't.
You've got a lot of choices. I
In my eyes ILU and ILU as a person are NOT the same...Just my perspective...I love a lot of people for who they are!Friends, colleauges..on and on...but Saying I love You in a romantic way is different.
Regardless..sounds like you took yourself over a bump..you shared some deep feelings with him & he reciprocated! Its all good!
I love you as a person is NOT the same thing as I love you. I love many people as a person. Doesnt mean I am IN LOVE with them.
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Edited 8/21/2008 7:46 am ET by tori2007