Finally feeling peace - and elation!

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Registered: 03-19-2004
Finally feeling peace - and elation!
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Fri, 04-23-2004 - 2:03pm
Update to all of you who have helped me in the past...

I am still on my own. Been there for two weeks. I love it. I feel so wonderful. I am still talking with the H - he is still trying all he can to reconcile, and I just keep getting further and further away from him emotionally. I have a lawyer's name from a friend that I will be seeing next week. Only 6 more weeks until I see my OM again...I am so excited! He called me the other day out of the blue and just confirmed his feelings for me all over again. He has fallen more in love with me while being away for the last three weeks, and I have with him. I can't wait until we can be together and not in secret :-)

I am still terrified of going through the D with my H, but each day that passes makes me understand more that this is what will make me happy. He will hurt, but he will survive. And, if these changes in him are for real, then somone else will be able to benefit from them later who can give him the love he deserves. I just need to get things straight in the line for the D and then make sure the H understands that that is what is happening. Although I've mentioned it to him, he somehow just ignores it and keeps saying 'we are on the right path - we will be fine in the future - we will work it out and be together soon - etc.'. I still think he is just denying it.

But, I'm not worried. I love my OM unconditionally and cannot wait to be in his arms again. And, I am even more excited about leaving my R for myself to be on my own for once and away from the pain...the fact that my OM is along for the ride is just music to my ears :-)

Later yall, FMH6

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Registered: 10-13-2003
Fri, 04-23-2004 - 2:29pm
I'm glad you're in a better mood, FMH6!