Finally over - need some encouragement
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Finally over - need some encouragement
| Tue, 04-06-2010 - 1:10pm |
So here I am once again; this time I believe it is truly over yet somewhere deep inside I don’t want it to be and soon I’ll never see AP again.

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Hi life,
It feels as if your almost mourning the lost of someone you love. It's such a hurtful feeling and I'm sorry for your pain. I wish you all the best as you take things with AP day by day. I think he's been very quiet since Friday because it's very emotional and doesn't want it to get any harder then it already is. That's the thing with an A, once feelings are involved its a whole different ball game.
Wish you much peace and love Life.
Hugs to you.
Rayne
Much peace & Love,
Rayne
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I don't have any advice, but wanted to offer you many ((((hugs))))!
Life, I remember your earlier posts. You wanted "one last time" and the girls at EAS were warning you about that. I'm so sorry you are going through this pain right now. I think you knew what was going to happen but were just hoping for another outcome. You need to leave him alone now. You had your "one last time" and he told you how he feels about it.
You must understand that men are so very different than women. Men think you can be friends but the women will tell you that you cannot. We women are so much more emotional and vulnerable. We don't think our hearts are going to get invested but they always do. In the beginning you tried to fool yourself into thinking it was just about the sex. Then you became attached. To him, it
It almost seems like he is letting his guilt come through now that he knows it's over.
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Life, I feel like I am living in your parallel universe.
Thank you so much for words of enouragement. Wow, I appreciate that, all of it.
That is the same reason I haven't posted on the EAS, because the fact deep down I still want him, and I'd be chewed up and spit out for saying that over there, lol.
We are both trying very hard to get past the guilt and such, for a couple days we didn't even talk, today however, we were being our funny, fun and silly selves with each other......it's great when we can laugh and be ornery with each other, but then again - that is exactly how all this BS started.
I really am trying to re-focus my thoughts; I too repented the other night, creid, asked God to please get me out of here soon, but I still struggle with thoughts of him, it is so hard to get those desires out of my head.
Nothing you said sounded silly at all...it makes total sense. Your post here has really encouraged me.
He ran into my H today, and he told me "he is a super nice guy, don't f*** that up, seriously.
Seriously!
Hello there-
I think that is a great idea, and yes, be glad he is being strong...that is good, hard yes, but good.
Well, my AP knows how hard this has all been on me and knows that I've planned on leaving and as you know ran into my H yesterday (guilt gets to AP big time) well, I had to go to his office earlier and sent an email after I left that said "you're wrong and shouldn't be doing that" he said WTF are you talking about "I said you were looking and shoulnd't be" he siad dont' take this the wrong way, you are very attractive but I'm done" and for some reason those words to me - it was as if I needed to hear those words, I feel so much better and feel as if we will really stick with it this time - am I dumb for thinking so? My good friend whose been with me through it ALL said we are are BOTH full of it.
Ugh, but I really feel this time it's true and we will be just friends, is it possible? Seeing each other....workign together after all this - do you think it's possible. I mean, last Friday was the most intense yet of them all but I for whatever reason believe we can do it.
How are you holding up Life?
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