A first time for everything

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Registered: 04-03-2007
A first time for everything
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Mon, 10-06-2008 - 10:41am

AP and I have been going strong for just over 2 years now. The only time we ever texted was immediately prior to meeting. Never any other time. Then a couple weeks ago we had a mini texting session while at home. Gasp! Big no-no for us for safety. IT was a first though. He is super sweet but not overly romantic. But yesterday, I had a very long day at work. About halfway through the day he sent me a very sweet text to let me know he was thinking of me! It's amazing that after 2 years things still get better and he continues to surprise me!

Now, I could never reveal this to him but this is how freaking screwed up in the head I am. I catch myself wondering if he has found someone else and that's why he is being so much more attentive. How horrible is that? I would never share this with him because I feel it is so hateful of me! I hate it that I even think this way. He is an amazing man and our last time together was a very, very revealing time. If we hadn't been close before the last meeting, we most certainly are now. Our time together was of opening up to each other. All secrets gone. So I know that this is the reason for his affections. I know this is why he is so loving to me.

I keep telling myself to stop thinking this way. It's just a way to sabotage something very good that is happening to me, which I do to myself sometimes. Grrrrr!

Anyhow, I needed to share. This is one thing I must share here that I can't share with him because I think it would hurt him and that is the very last thing I ever want to do.

Of all the relationships I have had in my life, I have NOT been a jealous person. I have been confident and secure. But I find myself being jealous with him. WTH? I know some of it may be the nature of the A, but it is still foreign to me. I tell him the same, that I've never been a jealous person but I don't think he believes me,lol! He told me a couple days ago it makes me cute.....but it frustrates the hell out of me!

Well, that's enough for now. Hope everyone is having a great Monday!

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Registered: 10-10-2006
Mon, 10-06-2008 - 2:53pm
GF, think positive! he is texting bcuz he knows you like it and it makes him feel connected when you can't be on the phone or online. My AP didn't like doing it personally, but he has made the effort several times to text.....I made a fuss over him each time; be sure to tell yours how much you like it.Stop worrying and enjoy!