I'm so sorry no one talked to you since you posted this! Somehow your post got lost in the posts here, but that's no excuse.
I'm not sure what to say to you that you don't already know - from your own words here. You know this is a dead end and you know you'll get hurt eventually. I'm not sure what you can do about it because you're already really infatuated and it's near impossible to leave when you're that hooked.
You could try to remove yourself a little bit emotionally. It would be really hard to do, I know that. You could also break up with him now, but again I know that might be near impossible for you to do.
What I foresee is his finally getting an arranged marriage, and you becoming quite broken-hearted if he shows interest in or affection for his bride to be. Yet, you WILL want him to be happy. And his happiness would include a good wife and marriage, wouldn't it? It sounds like there's no chance for the two of you to ever be together, if "virginity" is so important to him. He must be from a different culture or a strict religion?
I wish I had wiser words for you. I can't see anything but pain at the end of this road, and only you can decide if the joy right now is worth the pain later.
Some would say that I fell from grace... but I didn't.
I'm so sorry no one talked to you since you posted this! Somehow your post got lost in the posts here, but that's no excuse.
I'm not sure what to say to you that you don't already know - from your own words here. You know this is a dead end and you know you'll get hurt eventually. I'm not sure what you can do about it because you're already really infatuated and it's near impossible to leave when you're that hooked.
You could try to remove yourself a little bit emotionally. It would be really hard to do, I know that. You could also break up with him now, but again I know that might be near impossible for you to do.
What I foresee is his finally getting an arranged marriage, and you becoming quite broken-hearted if he shows interest in or affection for his bride to be. Yet, you WILL want him to be happy. And his happiness would include a good wife and marriage, wouldn't it? It sounds like there's no chance for the two of you to ever be together, if "virginity" is so important to him. He must be from a different culture or a strict religion?
I wish I had wiser words for you. I can't see anything but pain at the end of this road, and only you can decide if the joy right now is worth the pain later.
Some would say that I fell from grace... but I didn't.
You've got a lot of choices. I